My three youngest grandchildren all turned 15 over the summer; and all three recently obtained a learner’s permit to drive. I have a fourth great grandchild on the way. My girls’ father, who is five years older than I am, is beginning to show signs of dementia. My daughters worry about possible problems that might arise when he and his current wife can no longer take care of themselves. For some reason, my girls are convinced that I will live for another 20 or 30 years. I beg to differ.
I have been blessed with relatively good health, in spite of the abuse that I have inflicted on my body through years of digging in soil, planting, and weeding. This is not to say that I am immune to old age. I do not waste my time going to medical doctors in order to have them perform numerous tests looking for something that “might” be wrong. I do not imagine future illnesses. I have more important things to dwell on – like the health of my garden and the contentment of my cats. I have not been sick in years, not even with a “common” cold. I never got COVID and I never got the vaccine. I do not volunteer my arm to receive a yearly “flu” shot. In fact, I do not fall for “what if” propaganda to receive any of the yearly “routine” checkups. More importantly, I have no need to garner sympathy. I am surrounded by people who are hypochondriacs. They are consumed with fear and always imagining that there is something wrong. Their fear is precipitated by the medical establishment and Big Pharma. I am grateful that I have not succumbed to the gorilla marketing that has saturated television, radio, magazines, and social media – advertising designed to induce fear into the psychologically vulnerable.
I am living on borrowed time. I have watched the world’s human population jump from only two and a half billion to eight billion during my lifetime. I am happy to move out of the way when my time is up, to make room for the next generation. Regardless of what I have, or have not accomplished by my life’s end, I will not argue. I will make my departure with a bow and a thank you, and blow a kiss to those I leave behind.
14 AUGUST 2023 BORROWED TIME
10 AUGUST 2023 HUMAN MISCONCEPTIONS
In our world of technological advancement, we have been led off track from our place in the natural world. We have convinced most of the human population that intelligence is paramount to making the most of our lives. The development of “artificial” intelligence (in other words, human imitation of intelligence) has taken society by storm. In a very short span of time it has become “normal” for every person to carry a “smart” phone on his or her person. My grandchildren spend nearly every waking moment hunched over their smartphones, completely unaware of the world around them.
IQ tests are still commonly employed in assessing an individual’s abilities. We even “judge” the intelligence of other species compared to our own. We have replaced the importance of intuition and wisdom with the false leadership of intelligence. Where has our intelligence gotten us, but into one dire problem after another? Nearly every human advancement has brought with it a problem of equal or sometimes greater proportion. One example is the coal taken out of the earth. Not only does this rape the planet, leaving it scarred and unsightly; it also displaces hundreds of species by destroying their habitat. The workers who work in the coal mines become sick with black lung disease from breathing the coal and silica dust.
Our power lines have become the source of death for many large migrating birds that are instantly electrocuted when, because they cannot see the lines, fly into them. They are also killed when they collide with wind turbines. Many waterfowl die agonizing deaths from ingesting lead that is found on the bottom of lakes and ponds, from human hunting and fishing. Millions of fish and birds are caught in the nets of fishermen. The oil that is all too often inadvertently spilled into the ocean, spells death to fish and seabirds alike. The forests that we have clearcut have left thousands of species homeless. The automobiles that we all drive leave still more animals crushed to death on our highways, pollute our air, and often result in human deaths as well. Plants that we have imported to solve an erosion problem (also caused by us) become invasive and create still more problems. The numerous dog and cat breeds that we have “produced” has resulted in their reliance on us to feed them (via factory farming and unsustainable agriculture) and we are now overrun with homeless pets because, just like us, they breed prolifically.
I could go on all day with examples of our human “intelligence” and the many problems it has created. Until we learn to align our intelligence with wisdom, with love, and with empathy, we will continue to exacerbate and to multiply the challenges that not only the planet, but we ourselves, must face. We must be willing to admit the mistakes that we have made and to understand that intelligence can lead to misconceptions when it is applied without humility.
7 AUGUST 2023 THE TIPPING POINT
Growing up in the 1960s I was instilled with the understanding that water is precious and wasting it, in my family, was not tolerated. Because we lived in an arid climate and received very little rain, we knew there was a real possibility of a water shortage. Most of our water came from snow melt high in the Rocky Mountains, in early spring. The abundance of water was, and still is, dependent upon the amount of snow that falls during the winter.
I lived with my grandmother during the 1950s in those Rocky Mountains. I remember vividly, the walks with her from the underground spring back to the house. She carried a 5 gallon galvanized bucket in each hand, to fill two large, round galvanized tubs for washing clothes – one for washing and one for rinsing. She also carried them to fill the large oval galvanized tub that we used for our weekly bath. She carried the water for our basic kitchen needs and for drinking. We drank the water from a ladle that was kept next to the bucket of water and we never worried about germs – nor did we ever become sick. To this day, I have never tasted water so pure and so sweet as the water I drank from the buckets my grandmother carried.
I lived with my parents during the 1960s in a Denver suburb and at that time, the water was still potable. While it was not as good as the water I drank at Grandma’s, it was still cold and fresh right out of the faucet.
It was not until the early 1980s that my husband and I began buying bottled water – Mountain Valley spring water that was delivered from Arkansas – in 5 gallon glass bottles. By this time, there was a noticeable difference in the smell and taste of water that came directly from the kitchen faucet. Due to the cost, I no longer pay to have bottled water delivered; but I fill my own bottles from filtering machines at the grocery store. I have always drank a lot of water. I often add lemon slices or occasionally make fruit infused water to enhance the taste. I do not purchase sodas or drink so called “enhanced” waters, which now line entire grocery store shelves.
Scientists tell us that the oceans make up 97% of Earth’s water. It is salt water; however, so we cannot drink it. More than 2% of our water is bound up in ice at either the north or the south pole. The remaining and only utilizable water can be found in our rivers, streams, and lakes – which is less than .05%. Much of that water is stored in underground aquifers. Most of this approximately half of a percent, of all of Earth’s water, that is available to us, is contaminated. The aquifers are drying up and corporations are attempting to monopolize what little remaining water we have. This is why it is imperative that we begin to conserve this indispensable element that we cannot live without.
We must stop the profuse waste of water. We can grow food in place of lawns. We can build berms and swales and install rain catchments around our property. We can harvest rainwater and create rain gardens. We can stop purchasing sodas and drinks in throw away plastic bottles. We are at the tipping point of losing what we can no longer take for granted. NOT HAVING water is a scary, scary thought – and that could easily become a reality.
3 AUGUST 2023 MORE
I read something interesting the other day in a book written by Heather Jo Flores, called Food Not Lawns. She suggests that we begin to give back more than we take. This is radical because the current paradigm is about taking all that you can get, as fast as you can get it. Everyone seems to think that the world revolves around them alone. In the world of “me” it is all about “my” life, “my” problems, “my” needs, and “my wants.”
In our monetary based system, we are told that we must be paid for our “time.” If we have a need to vent or to talk about our problems, we may pay for drugs, either illegal or pharmaceutical, to alleviate our suffering. Therapists are all too happy to listen to our problems, providing that either we, or our insurance company, pays them. Some religious organizations have “trained” practitioners who will pray for us. Tarot card readers and psychics will gladly take our money to tell us the version of our future that we want to hear.
In our current system where everything must be paid for, there is a complete misunderstanding of the way the world works. The ever constant holding onto and damming up the flow of good, results in scarcity – or too much. This is true whether we are talking about our own lives, or about the world we live in. We have created dams and diverted rivers to suit our own selfish needs. We are now experiencing water shortages in many places and flooding and contaminated water in others. Our planet was designed in such a way that everything lives in balance. This is most evident when we observe our own breath. We can take in only what our lungs can hold – no more, no less – yet always enough.
When we understand that there is always enough, we no longer need to block the flow of good, or to hoard it. We must give back what we take. We must give, in order to receive. How can each of us give back more than we receive, in order to bring our planet back to a state of equilibrium? It would be easy I think, if we all begin to “pay forward” and to change our mindset from taking, to giving. The more we give – the more we receive.
31 JULY 2023 HEATING UP
There is an ominous feeling in the air. I know that others, like me, can feel it. Those of us with acute senses can notice the slightest shift in energy, just walking from one room to another, or driving from one part of town to another. We remain on high alert, always observing the world around us. Many of us are loners, living solitary, and often lonely lives.
We are surrounded by climate change deniers. Recent months have shown us that climate change is really happening; although some still refuse to believe that humans have played a part in it. The ocean temperature in Florida has risen to over 100 degrees F. threatening marine life and coral reefs – and ultimately, entire ecosystems. Extended droughts and heat waves in many areas of the country are also affecting human life. People in Phoenix, Arizona are piling into emergency rooms with 3rd degree burns, obtained from touch metal seatbelts in their cars, or stepping on hot pavement. Their pets, too, suffer from burns to the bottoms of their paws.
The nearly total covering of the Earth with concrete, asphalt, and tall buildings with glass windows has caused temperatures to rise as much as 8 degrees higher in cities. This is exacerbated by the lack of trees and vegetation that would normally provide shade. Trees and plants protect the planet just as the skin on our bodies protects what is inside of them. We have removed the earth’s protective covering, exposing our planet, other species, and ourselves to unfathomable suffering. We have taken what was once beautiful and replaced it with impermeable substances. Then we have strewn it with trash, cigarette butts, and bits and pieces of metal, plastic, and electronic rubbish.
We can no longer deny that our world is heating up. Peoples’ tempers are heating up as well. Our own country continues to become more divided. Suicide bombings and wars continue to rage in other parts of the world. Are you one of those who can feel the urgency of our situation? Can we turn the tide of the glowing and growing embers – both real and emotional? I believe that we still have time – but very little. We can find ways to douse the flames that are threatening life as we know it; but we must choose to do so. We must be willing to change. We must do our part.
27 JULY 2023 THE LIES WE TELL OURSELVES
When you have lived for nearly three quarters of a century, you begin to see how much life has changed. The morals that were in place in the 1950s would seem almost prudish to today’s teenagers – assuming they have them at all. Prior to color television, we watched The Donna Reed Show, I Love Lucy, The Dick Van Dyke Show, and Father Knows Best in black and white; where couples were never seen in the same bed together. Fast forward to movies in the 2020s and you will see intimate scenes on your television screen that rival that of porn. Sex was just as prevalent 75 years ago. Marital affairs, incest, and rape were just as common; but the taboo was in talking about such matters. The sexual revolution, which began in the 1960s, has kept rolling, seemingly gathering momentum over the years. The pendulum between the sexual denial of the Victorian era and the promiscuity of today has swung further than could have been imagined.
Clearly, the human race is undergoing a moral upheaval, especially where family values are concerned. Rebellion against organized religion, that for centuries had suppressed and hidden many human behaviors, has created a fissure in the stability of our culture.
Roughly fifty percent of marriages end in divorce. The average marriage lasts only seven years. Still, there are a surprising number of people who still believe in the lies they tell themselves. Thousands of dollars are spent on elaborate weddings, for marriages that often end in the first year or two. Still, many cling to the fantasy of “happily ever after.” Others live sexually active lives without ever considering marriage.
Life continues to change and each new generation views the world through a different lens than the previous generation. In 1969, Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young recorded Teach Your Children. We have very little control over the code our children choose to live by. We can only look at them and sigh.
24 JULY 2023 CHOICE
My oldest daughter will turn 46 in a week. She does not wish to be reminded of her birthday; but I keep reminding her that it was one of the happiest days of my life. I was fortunate that her planned home birth was a gentle and quietly joyous occasion. This has not been the case for many women, whose hospital birthing experience left them emotionally scarred. I was tripley blessed because all three of my daughters were born at home, attended by midwives. I knew, years before I ever became pregnant, that I would give birth at home. This is how it has been done for centuries.
Women today remain oppressed by the heavy hands of medical professionals, insurance companies, and government policies. Those in power believe they have the right to decide and to control what a woman does, or does not do, with her own body. They believe that they “own” the children that she brings forth. After having three wonderful home births, I began to train as a midwife myself; but the threats being made towards midwives for births gone wrong, caused me to abandon that pursuit. A few midwives, and even parents, have been sent to prison for “involuntary manslaughter” and for “practicing medicine without a license,” because a home birth had gone awry. The thing is, having a baby is not a medical condition. It is a natural process. The real issue is that the doctors, hospitals, and insurance companies do not make any money when a baby is born at home. When your babies are born at home and not subjected to “routine” tests, immunizations, circumcisions, and checkups, it is more difficult for the government to keep track of them.
What modern society does not and will not accept is that sometimes babies die; and sometimes they are born breech, and sometimes they may have less than perfect health. This is true whether they are born at home or in a hospital setting. Those who do not understand the temporal condition of life itself, seek to blame others when a birth does not go as planned. They bring forth lawsuits and go after the midwives, who have only the purest of intentions. Parents who choose home birth are well educated and healthy. Their decision is based on careful planning and good prenatal care – far better than what they would receive in a typical medical facility.
Certainly, there are women who bring children into the world without the slightest care about what they are doing. Some will continue to smoke cigarettes, drink alcohol, and even do drugs while they are pregnant. Many mothers-to-be are in poor health from a lifetime of eating junk food and possibly even becoming obese, already endangering the health of their child.
In the natural world, for many species, a very small percentage of offspring actually survive their first year. This is the means by which Nature’s balance has been maintained, preventing any one species from over-populating. Our own human history contains gravestones of babies and small children that had not survived. The parents of these youngsters grieved; but they understood that life goes on, and they often had subsequent births that were successful.
I watched a movie the other evening that kept me on the edge of my seat, wanting and needing to know how it would end. It was called, “Pieces of a Woman.” The story was about a woman giving birth at home, played by actress Vanessa Kirby. The acting was very well done. In this movie, the baby died shortly after the delivery. The woman’s family wanted to incriminate the midwife; but fortunately, the grieving mother testified that the midwife was not to blame – no one was to blame. I cannot help wondering if human consciousness will ever reach that place of not needing to blame and to judge others. I do believe that as more women become educated, we will demand to be given back our own power to choose. What we do with our bodies is our choice – ours alone.
20 JULY 2023 A LOVELY MORNING
I had barely awakened this morning when the rain began. It was a downpour. There was little wind – only the rumble of thunder now and then. It is the kind of morning I relish, with the fresh scent of just washed air streaming through the window. It has turned out to be one of those cool summers with a high of only 64℉ predicted for today. The plants in my garden are reluctant to grow, but this does not diminish my enjoyment of the unusual abundance of rain that we have been blessed with this year.
Other parts of the country have been plagued with drought and smoke from the wildfires in Canada sometimes drifts down here, enveloping the sky in haze. Many places further north, especially the Arctic, are experiencing warmer temperatures as glaciers continue to melt. Still, we go through our lives either enjoying, or complaining about the weather that comes our way. I love rain every bit as much as a warm, sunny day; but while I am grateful for the rain, I am also concerned. Catastrophic weather events continue to occur worldwide and we can no longer afford to be complacent.
We, the people, must demand that our governments take immediate action to fight climate change. We must reduce the use of fossil fuels and our carbon footprint, to help halt rising sea levels. We must hold enterprises accountable for their contribution to what could ultimately be our undoing. Many people do not care about the loss of thousands of species, or the fact that polar bears are facing extinction; but they care when a tornado rips through their town, or a wildfire destroys their home. It hits them in the pocketbook – the only thing that will jar them enough to reconsider their personal impact on Earth.
I have no problem accepting what is when it is something I enjoy, such as this morning’s lovely rain. At the same time, I know that as a human being living on this planet and as a citizen of Earth, I must do what I can to facilitate positive change. On this beautiful, rainy morning I know that above all, I must remain hopeful.
17 JULY 2023 PLASTICS
We have known for quite some time about the widespread contamination of our oceans with plastics. What I do not understand is: why do we not immediately stop doing something once we have become aware of its detrimental effects on the environment? These discoveries should dominate every news channel world wide; and those responsible for such circumstances should be required to cease and desist what they are doing. The problem is that most of the practices that continue to negatively impact our world are carried out by billion dollar corporations. Corporate enterprises are made up of people just like you and me; but no one person assumes responsibility. Therefore; the cause of the problems we face remain blameless in the name of profit. The compassion shown by a handful of individuals is snuffed out and the unconscionable deeds continue.
Not so long ago, we purchased soap in simple paper wrappers. Today, bar soap and soap dishes have given way to giant plastic bottles with pumps and sprayers. Dispensers of body washes, shampoo, hand soap and hand sanitizer line our store shelves. When empty, they are rarely recycled. Laundry and cleaning products, cat litter, cases of bottled water and enhanced waters, tubs of salad and fruits, plastic utensils, makeup and lotions, hardware, over-the-counter and pharmaceutical drugs – in fact nearly everything – is packaged in difficult to open containers that are thrown away without a second thought.
Ninety percent of our seabirds contain plastic in their stomachs due to the vast amounts of plastic that get washed up on shores. Kamilo Beach in Hawaii and Henderson Island in the south Pacific are two of the most polluted places on Earth. Shearwaters unknowingly feed plastic to their newly hatched chicks, mistaking it for food, so most of their offspring do not survive. Whales and dolphins also contain plastic in their guts and sea turtles are known to eat plastic bags. These plastics cause internal injuries, lacerations, infections, and poisoning to these innocent creatures.
Much of our own food now contains microplastics. Our clothing is made with plastic threads and spandex, which are other forms of plastic. Polyester has replaced much of the cotton and other natural fibers that our clothing used to be made of. Polyester is also derived from plastic. All of these plastics require crude oil, natural gas, and coal for their manufacturing – all taken from inside the earth. The plastics that we unwittingly consume are making us sick, too. The doctors and hospitals don’t mind; however, because they are getting rich off of so many sick patients. There is also widespread use of plastics in the entire medical industry.
Plastic has become so prevalent in our modern world that it is like a fungus spreading into every nook and cranny of life as we know it. Are we, as this human race, willing to change, to save the world and ourselves? That is the big question.
13 JULY 2023 EAT AND BE EATEN
I have just begun watching a short documentary series narrated by Morgan Freeman. It is called Our Universe. In this world that we live in, we either eat – or we are eaten. Humans, being the top predator, are not literally eaten; but the rule still applies. We do not eat one another; but we often feed on each others’ energy. Our egos have ravenous appetites.
Like all animals, we never let our guard down for long. Our lives are driven by a hunger to reach some point in the future where we hope we can at last let out a big sigh. Those moments of reaching the top of whatever proverbial mountain we have climbed never last for long. We are soon faced with another challenge, for challenge is in a sense, the metaphorical predator that keeps us on our toes.
Human beings used to be nomadic, migrating according to the seasons and the availability of food. Millions of other species, birds, fish, herbivores and their predators, turtles, insects, and whales embark on annual migrations in order to reach their breeding or feeding grounds. They encounter danger and difficulty along the way. Sometimes, they are eaten. It is most often, the very young or the weak that are preyed upon. This has been the way of the world for millennia. The population of one species never outgrew the perfect balance that had been put in place.
When humans ceased to migrate, settled down and immersed themselves in agriculture, the stability of life on this planet slowly began to waver. In the past mere fifty years, our human population has nearly tripled! We are the sole cause of the extinction of hundreds of other species.
Some humans live selfish, greedy, egocentric lives, with no regard for any life but their own. Scientists are now revealing to us; however, what wiser humans have known for ages. We are all connected. Whether we are white, black, indigenous, male, female or something in between; and whether we are rich, poor, short, tall, thin, obese, intellectual, or artistic, we all are made of the same basic molecules. We are made of the very same stuff as insects, elephants, lizards, birds, fish, snakes, and trees. We breathe the same air. We drink the same water.
Whether we prey on other species, destroy their habitats and food sources, or whether we feel superior or righteous, we cannot change the mode of operation of life on Earth. We can prey mentally and emotionally on our fellow man to feed our egos, but whatever harm we do will return to us. The good that we do will also return to us. We can reverse some of the damage that we have caused to others and to our planet through good deeds, good thoughts, and love; for these too, are forms of sustenance. We must be willing to be eaten by allowing our divine nature to feed those around us. It is in giving that our hunger is satiated and it is in offering ourselves that we can transform our world and bring it back into balance.