21 NOVEMBER 2022 SEDGES HAVE EDGES

Many years ago, when Dr. Bill Sladen was instructing me about essential swan habitat, I was given a rhyme to help me distinguish some of the wetland grasses. Sedges have edges. Reeds are hollow. I was contemplating this fact of nature and found metaphors in this most unlikely of places – in this family of grass-like plants. 

Edges are boundaries. I realized that I have placed boundaries around myself.- walls, really – to shut out the pain and anger of past events. Those boundaries have also kept people out, leaving me alone for most of my life. So how does this sedge with edges, become hollow like a reed?

If I were hollow, the accumulation of emotions could simply pass through me and move on. Instead of adhering to the edges of my vulnerability and weighing me down, they could be blown out into the vast nothingness. How does one become hollow? How can I empty myself of the toxic build-up of emotion? As a sedge, my edges protect me. They are like armor, shielding me; but they are also the bars of a prison into which no one can see. A hollow reed allows all of life’s moments to move through it. A hollow reed offers its emptiness so that it may be filled; yet it holds on to nothing. It allows itself to be used and lets go.

Reeds are used to make musical instruments. From them, beautiful sounds are brought forth. A pane of glass allows light to pass through it. A candle burns so that the flame may flicker from it. We, too, can become empty vessels through which love, light, and peace can flow through.

As human beings we must begin to remove our edges and the boundaries that have kept us separate from each other and from the rest of Nature. We must evolve from being sedges. We must become reeds. We must open ourselves to the emptiness of being so that we – and the world – may be filled. In becoming reeds, harmony may be emitted and carried from us on the wind.

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16 NOVEMBER 2022 WHY?

I was unable to write Monday’s blog as I spent much of the day journaling. I needed to process the death of my 28 year old grandson. The grieving of this great loss and the intense emotion and pain that accompanied it, is similar in many ways to birth. Over time, we come to accept the unacceptable, even if we never fully understand why.

Whenever someone dies, especially those who are young, we ask, “Why?” The doctors may be able to provide a fairly reasonable explanation of the physical cause of death. The organs fail, the heart stops beating, the lungs stop taking in vital oxygen. They can give us detailed accounts of how the body had failed the soul that had occupied it. What the doctors cannot tell us is “why?” 

When we grieve, we become midwife to the birth of our own understanding. Eventually, acceptance of our loss opens the womb of our consciousness, allowing us to see a new day. Through this our soul grows. It is painful and sometimes the pain seems unbearable. Just like every woman’s labor and birth experience is different, so too, is each person’s period of grief. Whenever we experience loss of any kind, it is a form of death, but for every loss something new is brought forth. Life is a dance between birth and death. 

My tomato plants have withered in the freezing temperatures and the remaining young, unripe tomatoes will be composted into the soil. The enriched soil will give birth to a new garden in the coming spring. As I grieve the passing of my oldest grandson, I look to the garden for a better understanding. I will never know “why” he has left us, but for now, I accept the pain. I accept the loss, knowing that in time, understanding will be brought forth.

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9 NOVEMBER 2022 HOLIDAY

When we learn to live in the moment, it is like taking a holiday from the thinking mind. It is taking a moment of leisure, away from the work of worry and the toil of thought. During our holiday, stress falls away and we can breathe deeply, immersed in perfect peace. When we learn to take momentary holidays from our mind, throughout the day, we find that the peace we feel at those times begins to accompany us most of the time. Each time that we take these mental holidays, a tad bit of light finds its way into the depths of our being, which is later reflected when we return to the world of thinking and doing. The more often that we take a holiday from thinking, it becomes easier to balance doing and being.

I have always been one of those people who have trouble sitting still. I have an incessant need to be “doing” something. In most cases, I either enjoy whatever it is that I am doing, or I do not mind doing it. When I am gardening, for example, I become lost in that magical, peaceful place where I am doing, but not thinking. Recently, scientists have discovered that breathing in the Mycobacterium vaccae, that is found in the soil, boosts our mood. The microbes stimulate the production of serotonin in our bodies, which helps us to feel happy. I have stated many times that I am “addicted” to gardening. Now I know why.

Winter has arrived and the decreased light will have a negative effect on some people. Gardeners; however, have figured out how to survive the long, depressing winters. They began potting up plants and bringing them inside for the season, and they invented greenhouses. While I have not as yet known the joy of having my own greenhouse, I have always managed to find ways to play in the dirt, even in the dead of winter. After all, I have numerous houseplants, and I have seeds and windows…

Regardless of the frigid temperatures, the brutal winds, and the falling of snow, I will take frequent holidays from the tormenting thinking mind and I will take all of the comfort I can get, from the green plants and the soil that fill my home.

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7 NOVEMBER 2022 ANGER AND FEAR

I was scrolling through the news this morning when I ran across my horoscope. In it I read, “Fear is the raw material from which courage is manufactured.” The quote is from a spiritual teacher by the name of Martha Beck. I had not heard of her previously, but she is apparently quite well known. Oprah Winfrey said she is one of the smartest women she knows. 

Fear is not something I spend time thinking about and it is not something I am prone to feeling – especially since I have learned how much more peaceful it is – to spend my time centered in the present moment. I think that there may be two kinds of fear. There is the slow growing fear that is associated with worry. When we spend too much time thinking “what if,” we begin to experience in our imaginations, the physical and emotional disturbances of an event that has not even happened. We become sucked into a false future that doesn’t yet exist, but our dread can very well manifest it into being. 

The other kind of fear is one that comes suddenly, when we are all at once confronted with a very real or life-threatening situation. Sometimes, the fear may be unfounded, like when we are startled by someone walking up behind us whom we did not hear. Or, the cat knocks something off a shelf, creating a large bang and causing us to nearly jump out of our skin. I live a very quiet life and I am easily startled by loud noises. While some people might laugh with relief when they realize that their fear is baseless, I often feel provoked to anger. I have never quite understood this reaction in myself, but more than likely, it is a relic from some childhood trauma. 

Returning to Ms. Beck’s quote, I believe that anger is the catalyst that helps transmute fear to courage – when courage is needed. Anger is the motivational tool required to confront and change a situation, but that anger must be tamed if we are to change anything for the better. Anger is the force, but it takes love to tame it. Fear and anger together are powerful, but it takes wisdom to use that power for good and to change what needs changing. We often look at anger as a negative thing, but it can serve an important purpose. Our anger can facilitate change in the same way that thunder and lightning can bring much needed rain, or strong winds can bring snow to a dry landscape. Anger and fear, when we understand their purpose, are another necessary component of this thing we call life.

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2 NOVEMBER 2022 WHERE DOES THE TIME GO?

Here it is November already. I was amused when the manager at my workplace began putting up Halloween decorations in the middle of September; and now Halloween has come and gone. I can now look forward to my favorite holiday – the only traditional holiday I pay attention to – Thanksgiving. It will come and go like all things. All things must pass away and all the people and pets we have ever known will pass away as well. There is no truer statement and yet it is a hard pill to swallow, when we grieve the loss of a loved one. 

Where does the time go? Time never went anywhere. It is imaginary. It is not real. In fact, it does not exist. Human beings spend far too much “time” in their heads – in the past and in the future – but past and future do not exist either. We pretend. We tell ourselves stories about events that came and went. Time has nothing to do with it. We make a big deal about a person’s age, not understanding that we – and life – are timeless.

There has been controversy for years about Daylight Savings Time, about when it should begin, when it should end, and if we should have it at all. It was a crazy idea that began in the early 1970s. I remember it well because I was having to ride my bicycle to my job at a greenhouse – in the dark. It has always frustrated me because twice a year I have had to re-adjust my body to the changed “time.” I have never liked Daylight Savings Time. I do not like getting up in the dark and I do not like going to bed when it is still light outside. There is legislation that is trying to make Daylight Savings a permanent thing, so regardless of what I prefer, I will have to live according to the decision that is made. 

We say that time keeps marching on when it is actually only events that have come and gone and that remain in our memory. Every morning we awake to move through another rising and setting of the sun. We do this over and over again, but only a very few days will earn a place in our memory vault. Time has gone nowhere, but we continue on carrying with us the joys, sorrows, and lessons of previous events. When we learn to live in and appreciate the moment, “time” simply does not exist.

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31 OCTOBER 2022 STONE AND BONE

Several years ago, I had the opportunity to spend a week in England. My dear friend, Dr. William Sladen, a native Britain, had arranged for me to visit Welney Wildfowl and Wetlands Center, in the southwestern part of England. While I was there, I was given the rare privilege of feeding the wild Whooper and Bewick swans that flew in nightly. Driving through the English countryside, I felt as though I was traveling in another time – a simpler time. It felt oddly familiar and I wanted to stay there forever. 

Another highlight of that trip was my visit to Stonehenge. We had gone early on a cloud covered, foggy morning. The mist lent an air of mystery to the already mysterious monument. The photographs that I took portrayed a haunting beauty which I will always cherish. Stonehenge continues to fascinate those who are drawn to it. It is believed to have taken over 1,000 years to build it. There is also evidence that some of the bluestones that make up part of it, originated in Wales. A similar structure has recently been discovered in Wales. Although no one knows for sure, how or why Stonehenge was built, the arrangement of the stones always coincides with the winter and summer solstices. The sun rises and sets always over the same stones. Over the centuries, efforts have been made to preserve the monolithic structure. Historical pictures have been found that depict its rebuilding during the Victorian era, in 1901. More restorations were undertaken in the 1920s, 1959, and 1964.

I had heard many years ago that information is stored in stone – and in bone. There is no doubt that the stones of Stonehenge contain deep secrets. It is also not surprising that I am drawn to England – like a magnet. I have celebrated the solstices, rather than modern, traditional holidays, for the past twenty years. My paternal grandmother was an immigrant from Wales. I aslo found out recently that my DNA shows me to be 98% British. Somehow, I have always known this. I feel it in my bones.

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26 OCTOBER 2022 TURNING FAILURE TO SUCCESS

I may have mentioned in a previous blog that I had planted too many tomatoes in the garden. I gave several small basket-fulls away, ate them in salads, salsa, and spaghetti sauce; but I was still left with far more beautiful, ripe and semi-ripe tomatoes than I could use. The weather  has turned cold and the vines are still loaded with green ones, which will now be composted. The ones I had saved from the frost needed to be used quickly. Not wanting them to spoil, I began to wonder if I might be able to use my crockpot to make sauce. 

Blanching, seeding, and removing the tomato skins is time consuming and tedious. I did not have a lot of time, so I Googled a recipe which sounded easy enough. I only had to quarter them, toss them in the crockpot, and allow them to simmer for a few hours before straining out the skins and seeds. The recipe suggested using a food mill, but not having one I mashed them through a screen mesh bowl – as best I could. Unfortunately, it was not good enough. I ended up with tomato juice instead of sauce.

I have always had a knack for making a meal even when it appears that the cupboard (and refrigerator) are bare. My tomato juice, while not thick enough for sauce, smelled positively wonderful, since I had added freshly dried herbs from the garden as well. I decided to make a soup, a minestrone using the tomato juice as the base. Applying permaculture reasoning to the problem, my apparent failure was the solution, and my kitchen failures over the years have helped me to become a successful cook.

I have realized that for someone who grows tomatoes and needs to preserve them, a food mill is an essential item for the kitchen. I will definitely be purchasing one prior to next year’s harvest!

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24 OCTOBER 2022 TRAVEL

While dreaming may be the best way to travel, it is not really feasible here in the physical realm. I read recently that a luxury sleeper bus has been implemented for those traveling between Washington and Memphis. Similar forms of travel have already become more common in parts of Asia. Clearly, we need to come up with travel solutions. The maze of congested highways crisscrossing everywhere, coupled with an ever-increasing human population, cannot endure. Automobiles have contributed to global warming, air pollution, horrendous accidents, and the slaughter of millions of animals. They are becoming more and more expensive to buy and to maintain. Unexpected repairs can set a person back financially for months. Our lives; however, are dependent upon our mobility.   

Air travel leaves much to be desired. Airplanes are cramped and uncomfortable. It takes a lot of money to maintain and fuel the planes, not to mention the need for airports, runways, baggage storage ,and employees. Getting to the airports often involves long car rides. Your gate is often a long hike from where you entered the terminal and flights are often delayed, leaving people stranded in airports for hours. The noise and air pollution they create is huge and they are the cause of death for millions of migrating birds. Flying is without a doubt, an expensive way to travel and it is not exactly pleasant. Trains are also loud and big polluters, as well as being inconvenient. 

Horse travel was the quickest way to get around prior to automobiles, but many horse owners treated their horses very cruelly. Ideally, the most sustainable form of travel is on foot, or by bicycle. I have spent many years using a bicycle as my main means of travel, but it is not a safe way to travel if you live near, and must ride, on country roads. 

Highways, roads, fences, and the parceling of land have resulted in the decline of many species because they cannot cross these barriers to find food, water, and shelter. Humans need to slow down and stop being in such a hurry. Luxury buses with ample sleeping compartments may be one way to offer people a calmer, more affordable travel experience, that would result in less automobiles on the highways and fewer accidents. For now, reducing unnecessary driving is a good start.

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19 OCTOBER 2022 COMPLAINING

Having followed the sage advice of Eckhart Tolle for a while now, I am more watchful of the words that come out of my mouth. I am alert to the tricks that my ego gets up to, sometimes causing me to get lost in the “thinking mind.” I watch my thoughts and guard my tongue when I remember to stay centered in the present moment. 

I notice the habitual words of others as well. I have been made keenly aware of how often people complain. I used to complain too, until I learned that complaining is like feeding a monster. A mild complaint, when focused on and talked about, continues to grow. Most people want others to hear their complaints in order to garner sympathy. The truth is, most everyone else is busy voicing their own complaints, so they don’t care to hear about yours unless you can commiserate about a complaint that is common to both of you. We often feel validated if someone else shares a similar problem.

When we complain about our body, instead of appreciating it, we hinder its ability to maintain healthful harmony. If we  have pain or discomfort somewhere, it is our body’s urgent message that something is wrong. Many people ignore their body’s messages. They prefer to take a pill or seek the help of a medical doctor, rather than sitting quietly and listening to the message their body is trying to convey to them. Often, our bodies can provide us the solution if we are willing to listen. 

I become slightly irritated when people I barely know begin to relate to me all of their physical complaints. If I suggest that they drink more water for their headache, or see a chiropractor for their backache, they blow it off. They believe that the discomfort they are feeling is coming from somewhere outside of them. They do not wish to hear that they have contributed to the pain they are experiencing. They fail to see that our bodies have infinite intelligence hard wired into them, if only we would give them the credit they deserve.


I will be turning 70 in another month and my own body is sending me louder and more frequent messages. Life is a cycle and like all things, my physical body will reach the end of its service to me. I keep my lips sealed, rather than complain about the increased frequency of messages it sends me. I spend more time appreciating this flesh that has allowed me to experience so much during my lifetime. Its intelligence never ceases to amaze me. Occasionally, I might get a small scratch or a cut and the bright, red blood that appears, shows me how vital it is to this sacred vessel that has housed me for so many years. It reminds me that every body is precious and we would do well to honor, rather than complain about them.

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17 OCTOBER 2022 CONNECTIONS

In many spiritual beliefs we are told that we are connected – that we are all part of the one Source of Life. This is generally referring to our connection with other humans and sometimes other animals. We are, in fact, connected in a myriad of ways. The rivers all over the world connect with the ocean where they merge and become one. Birds fly in formations, turning as one. Schools of fish, swarms of bees, and ants, too, become one to accomplish a purpose. Planets revolve around the sun, creating one universe. A person marries, has children and becomes a family, which is part of a family tree connecting him to all of his relatives. Our roads lead to highways, connecting to other highways across the country, from one end to the other. The blood vessels and nerves in our bodies connect our organs to each other so that they can operate as one whole body.

Everywhere you look, you will see that life is connected to life. In so many ways, life is interdependent upon life. No one thing or person can live completely independent of other life. Predators require prey. Plants require pollinators. We require each other. This makes you wonder why so many humans tell themselves that they are better than others, as a result of an inflated ego. Conversely, others believe themselves to be victims in an unjust world, which is also an attention getting ploy of the ego. 


Our bodies can tell us more precisely when our beliefs are out of balance. Our wrong thinking, combined with negative emotions, results in sickness in the body. If our foot decided to hate our shoulder for some ill conceived notion, refusing to see their common connection, it would result in disharmony. If our stomach resented our heart, this would cause trouble in the harmonious workings of our body. How often do we criticize one another, assume an air of superiority, or seek to harm others, forgetting our connection and forgetting that we need each other? Whenever we feel out of balance, we should take time to observe Nature. We should gaze up at the night sky or watch a river slowly wind its way to the sea. Nature maintains its equilibrium and until human beings come to understand and accept that we are nothing more than a tiny link in the chain of life – not life itself – then we will not find lasting peace.

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