For the past thirty years, I have allowed myself to be guided to where I needed to be and what I needed to do, at any given time. There were a few occasions when I either became confused or I ignored the guidance I was receiving. It is almost like my gut has a language of its own and I have become fluent in understanding its secret messages. It speaks through the senses. It speaks through the heart. It is a “gut” feeling, an intuition.
A year ago, I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt, that Wyoming was no place for a gardener. Trusting inner guidance often involves great patience. The goddess of all life has her own time table, which I have come to respect. One year ago, I was determined to leave this town. I was a fish out of water, slowly dying. I wanted to go to Washington, or back to Virginia; but my gut felt like I was pushing against a brick wall. The door would not open. So, when my daughter asked me to stay while she deployed for a year, I reluctantly agreed. I immersed myself in the garden, brought home five baby chicks to raise, and buried my disappointments. I accepted my situation. Occasionally, family members and friends would ask me what plans I had for when my daughter returned. I did not know. I had no clue. I never really thought about it. I knew the guidance would come. And it did.
A couple of months ago I was talking to my friend on the phone. She mentioned that a cousin of hers had just moved to Arkansas. For the next several days, Arkansas kept intruding on my thoughts. I began to explore it online. The more I learned about it, the more certain I became that this is where I need to go. I searched their website and I was drawn to the Hot Springs area. I searched further and discovered that there is a botanic garden there. At the bottom of that website, there was a link to jobs. I saw that one of the job openings was perfect for me, so I updated my resumé and I applied. Four days later, I was called to set up an interview. Eleven days after that (this morning!) I had the interview. It went well. The door is opening. The guidance is clear. There is no resistance in my solar plexus. This feels right. I know that the goddess goes before me making straight and perfect, easy and successful my way there. She works in mysterious and wondrous ways. My heart is grateful!
